Updated: May 22, 2020
Anxiety curled around my chest, and squeezed me until I thought I was going to suffocate.
Anxiety curled around my chest, and squeezed me until I thought I was going to suffocate. Then, I took a short quick breath, but the vicious coils of anxiety wouldn’t let air flow into my chest, causing panic-stricken thoughts to race through my mind. What was I going to do with my life? Everything felt pointless. I had zero vision for my life, and I was suffering from major self-worth problems. I was in serious trouble.
I was on the phone with my mother. It was the end of sophomore year, and I had not declared a major, but I had to before my junior year so that I could begin to take the classes that would fully impact my major and the rest of my existence. BUT I DIDN’T KNOW WHAT GOD’S WILL WAS FOR MY LIFE! My mother, calmly asked me a question, “What has God already told you to do?”
I hesitated, and did not answer. If I did, I would then be accountable. I would then have to face the reality of my decision. In this case I would have to face the reality of my indecision. I was afraid to fail. I sheepishly answered, “I am supposed to be a writer.”